Cris Brodahl. Little Cloud, 2009
Crested Goshawk, taken at Taipei City, TAIWAN by John&Fish
this entire month is halloween don’t let anyone tell you otherwise
i’m so tired of being sad.
since i joined the ib department of the school, i have felt much happier because i’m no longer lonely the same way as before.
but even then, sometimes like now when nothing distracts me, i just burst out in tears and i cannot stop crying.
it’s like tiptoeing on a rope. i always have to concentrate about balancing, because if i step one centimetre too far i fall down, and i keep falling down and down and down.
i wish i could do something productive, like getting a new job so i could earn some money for myself, but i have no energy to power my body. just the thought of searching for a new job makes me want to burst and drown in my own blood.
even just doing homework for twenty minutes drains me of the 10% energy i sometimes do have left, and it’s killing me.
and it is not something i choose; i don’t want to be depressed, and i really want to just function like a normal human being.
but i don’t, and society doesn’t care about you when you don’t. either you’re in, or you’re out.
but i’m trying my hardest to stay in, because i fear that if i’m out, i’m out for good. and i do not want to be.
the worst thing about online friendships is no hugs
man i wanna hug the frick outta some of you
this was my facial expression throughout the entire video:
i don’t have the energy to rant about this video right now, and frankly, i don’t even know where i should start, because this was so many levels of wrong
i bet people dont understand that im joking 800% of the time
i deal with my personal problems the same way i study for tests